Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Am I Really Ready?

We have the co-sleeper out and next to the bed.  We have the swing in the living room.  We have the car seat ready to be installed.  We have all the clothes out and ready to be worn.  To the untrained eye it appears that we are ready for this baby to be here... but the more I think about it, the more I realize that I don't think I am ready for him to be here.  

Sure physically, I am really ready for him to be out but emotionally, I am a wreck.  I keep thinking about all of the special times that Everett and I have and all of the routines that we have and how special every moment is with him.  I know that Flubber is going to be a great addition to our family and that we will have a plethora of special times with him as well but it is so hard to comprehend how everything is going to fit together.  

Before I had Everett, I used to watch TLC's A Baby Story and think "why are those parents so concerned about their first baby, they are about to have a second child and it seems like they don't care about it at all."  Well, now that the tables have turned and I am in those shoes, I totally get it.  It's not that I am not going to love the new baby or care about the new baby, its that I know how much Everett needs me and part of me is wondering if he is going to feel abandoned or shoved aside when the baby comes.  I know that Tyler will be there to help Everett through this transition and all of our parents will be there as well but as a mother I am so worried that something will change between us when the baby comes.

Has anyone else been through this? 


  1. My sister just had her second child April 16th. Her first is right around Everett's age too (will be 2 in June). She went through ALL the same emotions, as did her husband even. But as soon as she laid eyes on Baby 2, all those fears went through the window. The first few days were tough because I was watching Baby 1 while she was in the hospital. It was the longest my sister had been away from Baby 1, so she was in panic mode, but once she got home everything was perfect :) Baby 1 adores Baby 2 and it's one big happy family, as yours will be I'm sure!! :)

    1. Thanks! It's crazy how all these feelings compound right at the end! :)

  2. Sending you (((hugs))) today!! This "Mom" stuff isn't easy when it pulls at the heartstrings!