We have the co-sleeper out and next to the bed. We have the swing in the living room. We have the car seat ready to be installed. We have all the clothes out and ready to be worn. To the untrained eye it appears that we are ready for this baby to be here... but the more I think about it, the more I realize that I don't think I am ready for him to be here.
Sure physically, I am really ready for him to be out but emotionally, I am a wreck. I keep thinking about all of the special times that Everett and I have and all of the routines that we have and how special every moment is with him. I know that Flubber is going to be a great addition to our family and that we will have a plethora of special times with him as well but it is so hard to comprehend how everything is going to fit together.
Before I had Everett, I used to watch TLC's A Baby Story and think "why are those parents so concerned about their first baby, they are about to have a second child and it seems like they don't care about it at all." Well, now that the tables have turned and I am in those shoes, I totally get it. It's not that I am not going to love the new baby or care about the new baby, its that I know how much Everett needs me and part of me is wondering if he is going to feel abandoned or shoved aside when the baby comes. I know that Tyler will be there to help Everett through this transition and all of our parents will be there as well but as a mother I am so worried that something will change between us when the baby comes.
Has anyone else been through this?