My First Year of Motherhood

As I reflect back over this first (almost) year of motherhood I cannot help but smile.  

I smile because of the pure joy that this little boy gives me. I smile because I know that he loves me even though he can't tell me yet. I smile because I can not imagine my life without him and I can't comprehend how I made it this far before he was here. I smile because I know that one day he will look up and me and say "I love you momma."  

I smile at the thought of his "sniffy face."  I smile at the thought of his "whatchu lookin' at" face.  I smile when I think about the two little curls on the back of his head.  

I smile when I look at him sleeping so peacefully and when he crawls into our bed from his crib at night because he wants to cuddle.  I smile when I think about how much he still needs me  even when it is just to be near him. 

I smile when he crawls over to his books and starts "reading" them and then he looks to me for approval. I smile when he gives his babies hugs and kisses.  I smile when he dances and when he giggles.  I smile because I am so blessed to have him in my life. 

Motherhood is not what I expected, it is better, way better. No one could have ever explained to me how much I would love him and even if they could have- I don't think I would have understood.

I hope that those of you who are blessed to have a child or children in your life take the time this Mother's Day to celebrate how much they make you smile.